Had a great day today, went to the huge craft fair in Parksville , so many people and a lot of very nice stuff , very talented people on Vancouver Island. Then went out to lunch with my niece, well s;he had lunch and I had water, and it really was a piece of cake , no problem at all, then off to the Sally Ann for some bargain hunting, got some stuff for the motor home , and a glue gun. then home again home again jiggitty jig.  Fun day over all. And no Cheatin yaaaaaaa.

Yaahoooooooooooo. Day 25 of the glucerna  fast and 22 pds gone ,  10 days to surgery.

No sleep for me this night, I have a pain in my side like you get from running to much, I think I might have pull a muscle dancing with the Dr Oz show , I know how sad is that, it was fun and I just wiggled to much I guess . I took some Tylenol and we will see if it works. Guess I'm not ready for dancing with the stars yet.
I have been cooking apple butter in the slow cooker , we have many apples to use up, and I feel so much better when I'm working in the kitchen . this is an amazing recipe and if it works out i will post it . No cooking on the stove and burning it. just in the slow cooker over night and can it.

Wow  Two big Storms one behind the other. I got Sassy s   hair cut the other day and she will not go out side, even with a coat on(we don't do dog clothes if we can help it), and she is wrapped up in a sleeping bag on the sofa all I can see is eyes.
Well this is day 24  no food and now no coffee and no estrogen (Had to stop that before surgery) and everyone in my house is still alive and well. I really am amazed that I can do this. It is not easy , it is hard sometimes, right now I am dreaming about going to the store and buying cooked chickens and pot pies even kidney pies , I would never eat a kidney pie ever, not even now.  Some days are very long and I cry about everything on TV,  I'm still recovering from back surgery and if I'm not careful I hurt myself and I'm really wanting to work harder,  very frustrating , I have good energy and I'm so happy about that, everyday is in slow time for me right now . I go to the Doctor tomorrow and I will weight in and see how much i have lost.

Hubby and I both have the bug, we like to share like that, he is tougher than me , I take cold meds and read and sleep and he takes nothing and works though it. We will both live.

Some time in the last two days I have cut my self down from 1200  Calories to 900 calories, I didn't mean to do that yet but it just happened , and amazingly I'm fine with it.
I realized today this is a pretty amazing feat, Just to go on a fast of any kind and stick with it is very tough, and glucerna for me is just gross, I don't like sweet things to begin with. I'm pretty  proud of myself for sticking to this, good Job Cathy.
I have not weighted myself , I'm getting curios to know how much I have lost but I don't want to get hooked on standing on the scale everyday and I don't own one. I go to the doctor on Friday and will weight in then.
I think the biggest heart break I have ever(ok not ever) had was dieting and working out all week and gaining weight instead of losing. I want to be happy with how I feel and look not the number. 

Well the bug has hit and I am runny, achy, bitchy, sneezy , but on the other hand not thinking about food today.

Well this is really getting harder, the smell of food makes me sick , My nose is working overtime.
I also have had a headache all day and earache , it feels like a bug but hasn't got any worse .  I guess my allergies are not food related, because I still have them .
Bla bla Bla , I really don't want to write this stuff. But it is what is going on now .  Days are very slow and I really look forward to going to bed because , I can still sleep well. well I would like to be all sweetness and light , but I promised myself  I would do the good bad and ugly. If I'm going to keep a blog , might as well be the truth.

Well made it though the craft fair, almost didn't go, but in the end sitting here all by myself is worst, I bought some cookies for Jim and had him take them out to the office so I don't have to see them . Cooking is kind of werid as I'm kind of scared of being around food to much , but my husband is working full time and I'm here all the time so it is unfair to leave him on his own .  So He cooks sometimes and I made a big pot of soup to last him acouple of days . Yesterday I made meatloaf(I hate meatloaf) so I thought it would be easier and it was, but the funny thing is about not eating , meatloaf smelled dam amazing!  I never eat any and I felt better having something for Jim when he got home , but I was drooling, no doubt about it, this old girl could have learned to like meatloaf last night.

Then Sassy and  I went for a drive in the New  motor home(ok ok new to me) found some sunshine to sit in, and felted a bit better.
Had to give up coffee yesterday, now no coffee, no food and estrogen, thanks god I don't own a gun!
I am in the middle of making pillowcases for Christmas presents , I'm not going to be able to do much Christmas shopping so I thought I would do some fun Pillowcases , just to show I was thinking about it. This is the first three. Cathy

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Feeling a bit low, do I have to be all nice and sweet, can't do it today, All I can think about is food, I'm not Hungry, just lonely  for food , the honeymoon is over and I was thinking of all sorts of ways to pick a fight (with this diet)how stupid is this (I have lots of friends that think that),   just a waste of time , I should just get on with life and forget this dumb idea. I really wish I had someone close by to talk to .  All that just for food. oh Ya Christmas craft fair tomorrow. oh Joy........c

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This is day 17...wow 17 days no food. That is pretty amazing, I went to Town today, had a bunch things to do and I have been staying home way to much for me, I had a pretty good day , but old habits are a really head game, I normally stop for a cheap bowl of wor wonton  soup, after getting everything done with no problem then I drove by the soup place, and I started a big head game with my self , Who would know , just once, its only soup.
I'm happy to say the answer to who would know is me.  I'm pretty proud of being able to do this and I want to feel proud all the way though. 
Years ago(23years)when I quit smoking after about the first year I really wanted to start again, I had one drag off a smoke and I knew  I would be smoking full time again if I did not make it a clear rule .  NO smoking around me . Now I can be around it and well it is discussing  I know I would never have a smoke again and I am very proud that I was strong enough to do it, it was very very hard and the only way it worked for me was to not be around smokers. 
Food is different. You can't not be around it.
My whole life has been about feeding people.  Cooking for lots of people makes me feel good , I cook for 600 people at the Music-fest every year for fun.
This will be a huge learning curve for me. Thoughts of do I really want to do this run thru my head sometimes and the answer is still yes , I am excited, can't wait to start a New life style.

Nov 16.11
Good Morning. Well I'm doing pretty, no very well, no food just that really gross thick Glucerna, and coffee in the morning, plan on giving that up soon.
Brushing my teeth all the time, but not hungry at all, no cravings, its pretty cool really .
On the other hand ( and there is always an other hand isn't there) my son and I went for a drive in the new mini and stop at the store , I was just hanging out with him and went in with him. I found it very overwhelming, everywhere I looked was stuff I can't have , no yogurt, no chicken, so why  be there, and he was buying cooked chicken and cookies.  I went out side and waited.  I have been sticking pretty close to home ,  the more I go out the harder it is I guess.
On the blood sugar front , I have cut my insulin in half , both types and blood sugars are 7.6 to 5.5 , I can't believe I could do this. I have to be very careful to make sure I have Glucerna left to drink before I go to bed as I am lower at night and I'm scared I will get a low in the middle of the night. 
It's really cold here , I have been walking everyday and my little dog is loving it .

As we had to put our big guy down the new habit is really good for Sassy as she is missing him alot , so walking her on the leash is new to her she really looks forward to it. I have really great trails here, but we have a bear right now , so I'm a Little bit afraid to be walking in the woods with a snack on a leash ( I miss the big guy too, he looked after us), so we stick to the road for now.  I hope to find a walking partner( someone who is a bit slower than me who I can feed to the bear if I need too, Just Joking) Anyone interested?? LOL 

Better Day

Hey  today was a much better day , better blood sugars, and I bought an old Toyota motor home , today , not much to some people but I am tickled Pink. I  Named her Molly and I can't wait to till spring so we can really get to know each other.  I have a lower back ache today and abit of a headache , hope its not something nasty.

Nov .13 .2011
I am a  diabetic . I am over weight. In less then a month I will be having a surgery that will be helping me with both. No more insulin, I can't even wrap my brain around it.
Right now I can't eat for a month and I'm on about day , I don't know, day forever it feels like, but its only been a week or so , only ensure or glucerna and milk. everything we do is around food music night at the pub for dinner , supper dinner out , have friends over for ...ya you got the idea.
I'm not hungry, and have cut my insulin down allot , I thought i had a handle on  how much food I was eating before , no sugar ,no sweets  I changed my whole way of eating when I need insulin , but now being on a liquid controlled diet, if you are have sugar problem , this might be the way to get a handle on it. No fun being had here but great blood sugars .
And I have to say I really like seeing 5.5 or even 6.1 for blood sugars on a regular bases.
On the other hand my husband is out to supper with his brother right now and well I love time to myself, I'm feeling very left out, I don't want to tell him because he is working very hard to be what ever I need him to be for this time, and I don't want this to be a huge thing that takes over our life's. I told him to go and I meant it. But that's how I'm feeling, When i was looking for blogs to read, I wanted to hear how it was day to day so I hope to do that here.  Food is so much more important then we really know until you try to remove it. see ya all soon Cathy