Wow almost Christmas Eve. this month has been a very busy , abit crazy , and amazing all in one this year.  I am now only thre weeks from Surgery and feel amazing, everyone says I look great, but I think it is mostly  just because I feel great , this time last year , I had major back pain and was the heaviest I had ever been.  the constant pain just wears you down, I love being up beat , I hate feeling down , it is not a normal state for me, I guess maybe its not normal for anyone. Anyway I am so thankful for great surgeons , two of them and I plan on making the most of my New life .Merry Christmas all . and good Night :)