Hey :

I have had a great Christmas season, I have had no problems at all with food, but I have been very careful, but have tried turkey, chicken, beef, Brussels sprouts , most veg's, tomato's(can't get enough tomato's)salad in a very small amount, and some nuts, no problems , Coffee does seam to be a problem, makes me shaky and feel bad and raises my blood sugar :(. But if that is all so far I'm happy. and I have been a very good girl and not tried chocolate, so sad but I can wait.

Wow almost Christmas Eve. this month has been a very busy , abit crazy , and amazing all in one this year.  I am now only thre weeks from Surgery and feel amazing, everyone says I look great, but I think it is mostly  just because I feel great , this time last year , I had major back pain and was the heaviest I had ever been.  the constant pain just wears you down, I love being up beat , I hate feeling down , it is not a normal state for me, I guess maybe its not normal for anyone. Anyway I am so thankful for great surgeons , two of them and I plan on making the most of my New life .Merry Christmas all . and good Night :)

Wow two weeks today since surgery and I feel great, and great full so great full, every thing seems new and fresh, I'm going to have a great Christmas. :)

Hey I went to my first Christmas party last night , I made what my son calls hippy eggs (deviled eggs with chick peas in them from eggface blog) and mini meat balls, both I could eat and I had a bit of fresh chicken , a bit of mash potatoes , some carrots , I took my own v8 juice and had a great party

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Just want to check in and tell everyone  this has been a great surgery for me , I had surgery in June on my back and it was a bitch to come back(no pun) from and I was really worried about having to to it again , but I woke up and got up shortly after in recovery ,and walked around ,I could not believe I felt so good . I have walked alot (Dr Malik said the more you move the better and easier it will be) he also said that if you can stick to the fast without cheating it really makes the surgery easier and recovery easier, I drink that gross stuff for 37 days with nothing else , so I guess that helped to . I hope to never see glucernia again.
So I was in Victoria for five days after and went out almost everyday shopping and got my nails done. then got the ok to come home, I am a happy girl to be home,can't afford that city stuff.
I am eating everything that is on my list for the first two weeks and have no problem with eating at all yet, being very careful ( the crushed drugs are horrible) I can start eggs and toast well burnt(just the way I like it next week) can't wait , after a month of yuk , everything tastes so good .
All Christmas shopping is done, so I can relax.
So now on to Protein powder.... I only bought one kind and that is whey iso Burst orange cream. the flavor is not bad but the after taste is bitter and gross, I am taking it back. I just can't see drinking something that you don't like.
So I went to http://www.nashuanutrition.com/store/ and you can order samples of many many different kinds , five diff brands and lots of favors , so I phoned to make sure they send to Canada and ordered some , the shipping is a bit high but at lest you can try the stuff with out  buying a gallon jar of it. I will let you know how they are.

Well home again and unloads my very loaded car, Come on Santa , we are ready, no more shopping and most is wrapped ready for the baking and putting up the tree , I'm very excited this Christmas , I have so much to be happy for.
Perfect blood sugars today again and It just makes me giggle to think about this chance for a much healthier life . on that note ......good night.

Home again Home again Jig-giddy  Jig-giddy.

Up bright and early and off to the doctor and then back to Donna's load my car ( tons of shopping) and  head off down the highway short stop in Nanaimo.

Good Morning
One more sleep and I get to go home to my own bed yaaaaaaaaaaa, I am home sick for sure, tho my friend has been amazing at having me here and she is fun to be with , I want to go home and get ready for Santa , put the tree up, bake something and just be home , can't wait, I'm leaving right after my appointment at 9am. Going to Costco today :)

Good evening
You know when some one is heavy they never tell you their weight, including me, well I never told anyone how much insulin I was taking, because I knew that if you knew anything about it you would know, it wasn't working very well and I must be doing something wrong . Someone would asks me, well how much lantus do you take, I only take (how ever much) I always felt like I was losing a bet or something, cus I know things they eat that I hadn't had for years like juice, or hard candies, any simple sugar is poison to me, or beer or wine. I'm not quite sure where this is going, just bloggin I guess. Had another pretty great day .

My menu for the day cream of wheat with 1% milk , kosy shack pudding (no sugar) sweet potato with carrots and beef broth and cottage cheese, Apple Juice :) water, small amounts all day long, its like I think about food alot more right now than ever.

Blood Sugars today 5.3 , 5.3 , 6.0 ,6.7 
Oh ya I forget to say that is with out insulin. I still take a small shot of long term insulin at night but should not need that soon as well. Amazing Hey.

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I didn't sleep well last night , but i don't sleep well at someone else house normally. I was up early and went to a craft fair, did very well but forgot to take something with me to eat, or glucerna and I was a little worried I might need something, maybe low sugar or something , but all was fine , came back and eat fruit and cottage cheese( about a 1\4 cup)and rested for awhile, then went to to Tillucum mall for a bit , it is right up the road and back for sweet potato with beef broth and cottage cheese and now trying to get some water in , timing is hard , as no drinking with eating.

Well had my Surgery on Tuesday , this is Friday night 1030pm.
 I feel great.
My surgery was first at 7:20, Dr Malik went over everything with me in the prep room, he was not sure if he would do a sleeve or full by pass because of scar tissue from an old surgery , in the end he did a full by pass, then in the surgery room , he asked me to say my name and ask everyone in the room to say their part and if they were ready. then some lovely gas and lights out. I woke up at ten to 12:00 with lots of pain, had some lovely drugs and that really is the only pain so far. Nothing by mouth till the next morning after the leak test( very gross but quick ) then back to my room and 1 oz of water, best thing I have ever tasted, then one every hour till about 11pm (water with apple juice) then sleeping and cream of wheat for breakfast, I was very careful of that , but not problem and I was out that afternoon(thursday) , I have to be in Victoria till Wednesday. I have had yogurt, fruit , cottage cheese, and very gross crushed pills so far. My Belly is swollon up but really not to sore .

Well Surgery was Tuesday and this is Friday night, I have been out of hospital for two days, I feel pretty dam amazing, I don't want to say this is easy but it is so much better than I thought it would be. I'm at a friends place in Victoria and have to stay here till Wednesday, just to made sure all is fine.  I have had cream of wheat , yogurt, milk, fruit, carrots and its all good, and crushed meds yukk :(  

Bowel prep oh Joy! I'm not really sure why as I haven't eaten anything for 36 days . I guess just in case you cheated, I did not cheat, can you believe that , amazing I think, my pants are starting to fall off.

We are all set up at  a friends place and went and seen the nutcracker this afternoon, it was abit long for me, then a walk on Ogden point , and me with out a camera, I will have to go back tomorrow . Sassy loves it here, so all is good. I'm not really scared anymore, just waiting now.

Well I'm on my way at 9am , I'm very tired but probably won't sleep tonight , I have a great new book to read ,  and I'm ready to rest and recover , everything is done , look out skinny bitches, I'm headin down skinny lane.

"The knowledge of the past stays with us. To let go is to
release the images and emotions, the grudges and fears, the
  clinging and disappointments of the past that bind our
spirit."

Today I am releasing my spirit from the ties that bind it so if you feel the ground tremble, a soft breeze ruffles your hair or maybe a shimmer of light in the sky that is just a bit of my past being set free.

Well It is Day 30 of Glucerna and I have manged to not cheat, and I have to say mostly it has been easy , but the last few days have been hell, I am so over this.
I want toast and pizza and Coffee and I could go on and on , I almost cried when my husband brought home pizza for supper tonight, up on till now I haven't felt Hungry , but now I'm feeling hungry  too.  Three days to go, it would be so stupid to break now after doing this for 30 days , oh ya I'm not sure how  I did it but I start four days earlier than I should have ,dumb dumb.
I'm starting to get pretty nervous too , upset tummy , that and the food thing really makes me think just forget the whole thing and go out for Dinner. LOL...Not. Now is just wait time I guess, going to Victoria early to see the Nutcracker with friends and just be a tourist for a day .  Oh ya and the up side is I got all my Christmas cards sent , shopping done , presents wrapped , house cleaned , and packed ready to go , oh I forgot dog bathed , then she found a rotten fish an eagle dropped in our yard and I had to bathed her again . She is not going out with out a leash til we leave.I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed I guess and a bit teary. I will be fine. Cathy