Good Morning
I know I know I'm a slacker. lol but I haven't been slacking , I'm working hard at the gym , and very  busy , everyday  flies by , I have been to hope to see Steve , took some crab and had a good visit. It was very hot when I was there and so nice we sat out side .
 I have been working with  Beth for 4 weeks now and it is going well, she adds something new every time and it adds new pain every time but it is getting better.
I also have nerve damage in my right foot and am starting to work that area to see  if I can make it come back, one foot flops a bit when I walk and I feel off  balance, I can't point my big toe at my nose , it is just a small muscle, but a very important  one , I have start to work it out yesterday and it was cramped all night, not sure if that is a good sign or a bad one.
My three middle toes are numb and have been since the back surgery and after working those little muscles yesterday are way more numb , hope its a good sign, time will tell. I am still losing weight about a pd a week. I'm happy with that and i am 26 pounds from the first goal I made for myself and I am not going to start planning anything till I get there . Its a weird little head game and I'm really having a hard time believe I can get there, not sure why , but I'm finding that the head game part of this process is the very hardest for me .

Sassy got a hair cut yesterday after a whole winter with out one what a diff dog, she is soooooo cute , in a diff way then she was cute last week.  She is wearing her coat most of the time right now, it is cold and rainy and she is cold.
Working out is still hard and not my favorite thing , but I don't hate it anymore .  The gym I going to is empty most times which is a good thing but I find it much easy to do cardio if some one is on the treadmill beside me , its kind of like I steal their rhythm.  I all ways do 20 mins cardio , last time I had the energy to go back at the end and do 10 mins more for the first time . I have to wonder what Jim thinks as I go to the gym then come home so tired I need to nap , mean time he is working his butt off for hours on both sides of my gym time .  He is very good at giving me the space I need to heal , must be a hard for him as he is so strong naturally.
On another note we are waiting to adopt a new big dog  , we really miss having a big dog around the yard, it is a big  empty hole in our life and we need a new friend for all of us . we have applied and been accepted to the collie rescue and now are jsut  waitng for a dog to appear. Hurry up so Sassy and I can start walking in the bush, I don't like to walk out there with just Sassy , she is like a snack on a leash. Ok that is all today , talk to you all soon
Cathy

Hey  Seems hard to get here very often this days.
 My Brother is really sick and I'm having a really hard time not thinking about him all the time.
Well size 13 was great and now size 12 is even better.  I'm not losing at a very fast pace , it seems very  slow, The new trainer says I'm not eating enough, it seams like a lot to me but everyone seems to agree so I will try to eat( have been trying) to eat more. 1500 cals is the goal, I'm doing about 1100 to 1250 right now . really not sure how to add more , and they have to be good cals too.  I'm still having nerve pain a bit , but it is off and on , not all the time and I think it is from all the shifting from weight lose , the new trainer (Beth) has given me a ton of very small movement exorcizes , they don't really seam like much , but crap they hurt after. all those sore places I have been protecting, that is the ones she wants to work, of course .  Cathy

Hey Happy day
I went to the Sally Ann yesterday and it was $1 day , so I tried on 20 pairs of pant and bought four and a bunch of tops , all the pant fit , most of the tops not quite yet , I am in between sizes on top and size 13 on the bottom, so for under 20 buck i have a new wardrobe yaaaa. I have a bit of nerve back back in my back , I hope to god it is just from losing and working out so hard and I can work though it. I start with a trainer on Tuesday who is hired to get me back to work  anyway she can , I'm really looking forward to it on one hand , I like her, but knowing that she is there for one reason , scares me as that is how I got this back problem in the first place , I have to be very careful to look after myself, because their job is to get me back to work , no matter what , its a little scary, I hope she is smart enough not to hurt me. going to try Zumba today , not sure if I'm up for it , but won a  eight week set so have to try it once. The last two days have been lovely sunny , but cold and now it is rain y and cold maybe snow today.

Hey Blog
I'm bogging down abit, my thyroid is really reacting to losing weight and some days are great some , I'm so tired, very hard to get to the gym when I'm feeling like that , I have no clothes that fit , and  haven't had much luck shopping , its a weird thing I guess, hard to figure out what size . on the great great great side my Blood sugar is average 6 , for the last 8 weeks, omg omg omg Yaaaaaaaaaaaaa love it so much I can't tell you ......C

so I went from feeling  amazing tons of energy ( really diff for me ) to dragging my ass , not just tired but muscle tired , just want o sleep , I dragged my self to the gym because I promised myself i would go no matter what , and I really just wanted to cry, my doctor has called twice and lowered my thyroid medication, because e of the weight loss , I don't need as much so he says , but this drag ass feeling, feels to me just like I felt when my thyroid was low , so I looked it up on the net , guess what , too much thyroid med can make you drag ass too, I can't win for losing, OK OK so I will do what the doctor says and keep dragging my butt to the gym, we are going out to the shellfish dinner tonight, I don't have to worry about over eating as most of it is oysters and clams and I don't eat things with guts in.

Well I have this big head game with food and it is getting me down a bit, I'm not hungry , but I can't stop thinking about food , i keep blocking it out , but it just keep coming up, its much worst at  night , the last two hours before bed is hell. I'm pretty busy but bored as well, I don't really know what to do with this head space.

Bored Bored Bored , I have projects going all over the place and I'm bored, is this related to food , I'm not sure, I don't want to watch TV , can only read so much and go to the gym so much, I guess it really is time to go back to work, will be taking some courses soon to be doing that, and I can't wait for the courses. Going to Victoria tomorrow to see the Dr , she will give me a food plan to follow , now that I'm healed . OK that's it for now.