Life is very strange, sometimes very hard to understand. I hate to be a victim but sometimes you just need to say WHAT THE FUCK! I am at a place in my life where I never thought I would be again , starting over, again, I don't want to start over, I'm doing it kicking and screaming, well not really , but I am on in the inside, oh I know it could be way worst and I don't want to start feeling sorry for myself in case the universe shows me how bad it can be. I'm I heart broken , no not really, Am I scared shitless. YEP. Of what? I'm not really sure, maybe of the being not sure, being in this space where your waiting for things to change , but you don't know what they will change to, this no mans land where you're just floating, can't really say what you are doing or when. are you moving, are you staying where will you live. All I know for sure is I'm going to work every week day and walking with my Peeps on the weekend and one foot in front of the other for now. And wait for now. I'm feeling pretty low right now , not like me , not a spot I want to be. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel , just not sure how much energy I have to get there.
