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I went to the Sally Ann yesterday and it was $1 day , so I tried on 20 pairs of pant and bought four and a bunch of tops , all the pant fit , most of the tops not quite yet , I am in between sizes on top and size 13 on the bottom, so for under 20 buck i have a new wardrobe yaaaa. I have a bit of nerve back back in my back , I hope to god it is just from losing and working out so hard and I can work though it. I start with a trainer on Tuesday who is hired to get me back to work  anyway she can , I'm really looking forward to it on one hand , I like her, but knowing that she is there for one reason , scares me as that is how I got this back problem in the first place , I have to be very careful to look after myself, because their job is to get me back to work , no matter what , its a little scary, I hope she is smart enough not to hurt me. going to try Zumba today , not sure if I'm up for it , but won a  eight week set so have to try it once. The last two days have been lovely sunny , but cold and now it is rain y and cold maybe snow today.

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I'm bogging down abit, my thyroid is really reacting to losing weight and some days are great some , I'm so tired, very hard to get to the gym when I'm feeling like that , I have no clothes that fit , and  haven't had much luck shopping , its a weird thing I guess, hard to figure out what size . on the great great great side my Blood sugar is average 6 , for the last 8 weeks, omg omg omg Yaaaaaaaaaaaaa love it so much I can't tell you ......C

so I went from feeling  amazing tons of energy ( really diff for me ) to dragging my ass , not just tired but muscle tired , just want o sleep , I dragged my self to the gym because I promised myself i would go no matter what , and I really just wanted to cry, my doctor has called twice and lowered my thyroid medication, because e of the weight loss , I don't need as much so he says , but this drag ass feeling, feels to me just like I felt when my thyroid was low , so I looked it up on the net , guess what , too much thyroid med can make you drag ass too, I can't win for losing, OK OK so I will do what the doctor says and keep dragging my butt to the gym, we are going out to the shellfish dinner tonight, I don't have to worry about over eating as most of it is oysters and clams and I don't eat things with guts in.

Well I have this big head game with food and it is getting me down a bit, I'm not hungry , but I can't stop thinking about food , i keep blocking it out , but it just keep coming up, its much worst at  night , the last two hours before bed is hell. I'm pretty busy but bored as well, I don't really know what to do with this head space.